Learned yesterday after a routine 'tubal' on Thurs, that there are other things "in there". He named off a few good guesses and said words like 'early stages' and 'atypical', which isn't saying alot and alot. 
My feeling is that this is something 'going away' and that I'm creating health and healing everyday.  All there is to do is rest, eat well, play, excercise and create stress free environments.
oh yeah,
and pray.

As I write that though, I'm 'trying' not to worry and be peaceful in all of this.  I'm to return next month and tell the surgeon if I have any symptoms.

Now what?

An overwhelming sense of stillness, no longer hiding, locking, looking over shoulders, mistrusting...This happened a few years back.  Now when someone asks me, "why aren't you with a guy, don't you need one to be around to keep you secure, safe?" I knee-jerk to looking at them funny and then pick up 'they don't know they're safe also'' and say outloud "I am safe".  AND it's always good to be reminded of that, especially when I have my heart open and the sensation of being 'vulnerable' comes up. Being told, "you're safe here'', really works. I will say it when I sense moments with others 'you're safe' and observe what happens next. This can be combined with "I love you"!!

I've been here and present.  New computer has me cleaning up and removing things no longer pertinent for me now.
I'll update my community this weekend. For now, if there is anyone that would like to share some laughs, I'll be at the Comedy Cave 8pm tonight!! come and join me earlier so we can meet!